Release…

23 December 2012

Consigning broken heart to bottom shelf
And purely concentrating on the self
With expert hand I’ll ease the pain
Forgetting love or tell tale stain

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False Step…

15 August 2012

Oh fate, in false step, too unkind
Between the void and majesty
String up the soul and rob the mind
Of every thought except of she
To laughing gods my will resigned
A curse, cruel fate, for what must be

I don’t care what you say
It doesn’t really matter anymore
Your arms are not there to comfort me
I only deceive myself

How do you give it?
Though I feel it keenly in my chest
I’ve never really seen it
I’ve heard it a bit better
But you’ve hardly touched me
You cannot show me

What makes me so special
That your acts become nothing with me
To be for you in thought
To warm you with words
On those cold lonely nights

For me anyway

For you don’t feel the cold
You thank me as I stand in the doorway
Excluding

And what about me
I don’t want to feel the cold

But it doesn’t really matter what you say anymore

Black Velvet Sonnet…

17 November 2011

The velvet is as bleak as it is black
Depressions on your bed side mark my mind
To Hades I would go to bring you back
To see you here I’d willingly go blind
But you are gone and I am all alone
Alone to face the churlish taunts of night
To suffer screeching silence on my own
And turn my tears into these words I write
I cannot close my eyes for I would see
The happiness I’ve lost for evermore
In our room now a gaol of misery
I pray that death soon knocks upon the door
Till then in emptiness I lie awake
Enthralled to cold black velvet and heartache

Just a Kid…

16 August 2011

I am just a kid, just playing around
Having my own fun in my own playground
The pitcher, the batter, the fielding team
All parts am I in my play scheme

In playing I simply make light of it all
For I’m everyone, young, old, short and tall
I’m everything I could possibly think
As I skate around my imaginary ice rink

For as every player in this game I play
Alone I am now and alone will I stay
I play with myself and play frequently
Why does no one want to come play with me?

Your Place…

8 August 2011

As favours for friends go, there’s reward in it
That while you’re abroad, I come and house sit
Your home is so comely, exactly like you
It’s great to see some things from your place of view
Wanting to be with you, though you’re not home
Lying in your bed, and feeling alone
Except for your cat who’s a love and a bother
Thinking of you in the arms of another
Shaking the feeling for I must know better
Stop wishing we could make a home together

Are You?

5 June 2011

Standing in my fridge so bright and gleaming
Offering me comfort as I’m screaming
So do I take your invite in the end?
Oh Vodka Bottle are you my only friend?

Where…

3 June 2011

It’s often hard to see the wood for trees
Don’t know if I will ever know with any ease.
Confusion, conflicts, is it pain or not?
Why do I not appreciate the things that I have got?
Why must I think of more?
I’m what I would deplore
 
Externally content and inside numb
Portraying happiness though feeling glum
But is it actually to do with you?
Or is it me, unsatisfied with what I do?
I guess both is true
But what should I do?
 
Impatience though I thought was not in me
Has gripped me tight and points me somewhat desp’rately
I want to be where I think in a year
I’ll be a better man, where happiness adheres
So will I get where
Should you be there?

The Maze

19 May 2007

Lying staring at the blackness of my cold and unlit cell

Waiting to receive the wanted respite of a sleep filled spell

Thoughts a come of you and thinking where from here we go

A mind refined and answers filled yet cannot come to know

Like no savant of future views sees clear and set as straight

It pains to know how ends the play but still one has to wait

And so I lie in restlessness I ponder and I think

Just how our lives are so far yet inextricably linked